Not so long ago I experienced a week was a bit jarring for me as I worried and obsessed about news I had received.  In my mind I convinced myself I was letting the Lord handle it and remind me that I was not in control of everything as my naturally bossy and control-freak-self tended to believe.

After my yearly mammogram, instead of the normal “all is okay letter”, I received the dreaded phone call that threw me into a frenzy of “what ifs”. I spent the next few days finishing projects I would not be able to do if I had to have surgery and treatments.

I was still somewhat “in control” though as I was checking things off my list, moving forward and formulating plans and solutions for my life and for what my immediate future might hold and that made me “in charge”.

I wanted to keep this news between my husband and myself and if required, we would share this information.  People need not worry.  I was worrying enough for everyone. I prayed and asked God to take this burden from me, but the worry sat on my shoulders like an albatross and I conjured up multiple horrible scenarios.

The second scan was quick and thorough, the technician was kind and gentle, explaining everything as she performed her duties and then the waiting period came while the results were read by the radiologist.  The technician returned with a big smile and said the scan was all clear, nothing to worry about and I could now breath a sigh of relief.

I, like many of you, need to “Let it Go” and give it over to God.  This is so difficult as we are constantly being asked to be independent, be strong, be productive, use your skills, etc., etc. We would better serve the Lord and ourselves if at all times and in all circumstances, we would stop trying to be in “control”, remember that God loves us unconditionally and keep in mind the words from Isaiah 41:10.

So do not fear for I am with you:  Do not be dismayed for I am your God.  I will strengthen and help you.  I will uphold you with my righteous name.

Patty

Originally posted March 2020